Wednesday, August 4, 2010

My Dear Friends

I haven't talked about one of my dear friends for a i would like to tell you about my friend Sam. My friend Sam is an amazing person. One of the coolest guys i have ever met and the most caring person too. He has influenced me in a ton of areas and i am so very thankful that God brought him into my life. I know that the Lord has incredible plans for this guy's life and i can not wait to see where He brings him. Sam is the type of person that will always make you feel welcome if you are new and always make you laugh. But most importantly, he has an incredible heart for God and to bring people to Christ. I look up to that so much and wish i had that much passion. I can always tell that He has a lot of wisdom to share with others. About God, situations in life and just anything. He is also super humble about things he does. He give credit to God for everything he does, which is such a wonderful thing. Something that i need to work one. I know that Sam has impacted many people lives. He has touched so many people including me. I am so blessed to know Sam and be able to get to know him so well. He is one of the greatest people i have ever met and i am very thankful for him. i will miss him very much when he goes of to college and i pray huge blessings over him and that he would be an incredible influence on people just how he was here at home.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Incredible Love

It has been a long time since i have written on this page. I feel like "life" is slipping away. I cant believe summer is almost over and another year of school if left. My last year of high school. Crazy. I never thought this day would come to be honest. I cant believe how fast my life is going. So when God says our life is but a vapor in the wind....He's not kidding.
I just got done with camp last Friday and i was amazed once again by my God. It is incredible the love and power that He has. Reggie Dabbs was our speaker and he is such a man of God and such a great preacher. I learned so much from him and God used him big time. The one thing that really stood out to me was on Wednesday night we were doing worship and towards the end of it Reggie came up and had us sing The Power of the Cross again and look up at the screen. When we started singing it again, the Passion of the Christ started to play. The part that Jesus was being nailed to the cross. I couldn't help but cry and just worship my King that die for me. I just couldn't stop crying. As we were singing this song, Reggie pointed out that if i was the only person that has ever sinned, He would still have been beat, whipped how many times, spit on, kicked, carried a heavy cross and then nailed to it and suffered on that cross for me. He would have done that ALL for me if i was the only one. And the crazy amazing thing is, He did. That's the God i serve. I cant process that in my mind. That type of love that He has for His children.
But camp is always a high light of my year and i am always so blessed by it every time i go. I am on fire again and once again am ready to tell the world about this Jesus with incredible love.

Saturday, July 17, 2010


This is a topic that most girls sit up talking about at a slumber party. We dream about our prince charming sweeping us off our feet. Telling us that we are captivating and that he will love and never leave us. This is a desire for every women in this world. Including me. When i think about this desire that i have i wonder why God created me with this feeling. I know that God created a man and a women to become one and love each other and be there for one another for as long as they live but there has to be more. This must be the heart of God. I mean He created us right? I believe this is God's desire for us. He longs for us to love and cherish Him and never want to leave Him as well. It even says that we were created in the likeness of Him. I don't know. Just thinking about it makes me sometimes get super excited to find my husband and have a family of my own that will be totally on fire for God, but yet there is a part of me that gets super nervous and i wonder if God even has someone out there for me. I wish i could just fast forward time, it seems like it would be so much easier. My heart just feels a little heavy right now. I feel super confused on where i am suppose to go. Where God wants me to go. But....i know that right now God has everything under control and my future in the palm of His hand, so I'm not going to worry.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Prince Jonathan

"Nothing can hinder the Lord from saving, whether by many or by few." - 1 Samuel 14:6

This is such an incredible verse. This explains the power and the confidence that He has in His children. God doesn't need our strength or wisdom. He just needs us to be instruments of Him. He wants to use us for His glory. The story of Prince Jonathan defeating the Philistines with just his armor bear and himself. An army of 100,000. That is ridiculous. But Jonathan has incredible trust in God. He said in verse 6, " Perhaps the Lord will act on our behalf." Wow, he was just going on a perhaps that God will save them and help them. But the thing with Jonathan, he was ready to serve God no matter the cost. He trusted God with his life. He was going through life with a mind set, i will die trying or don't try at all. Jonathan took a risk. A leap of faith. A risk means you don't know what is going to happen or how it is going to turn out but you trust God anyway. I mean when you look at it, Jonathan's risk was to defeat an army of 100,000 people. That is a pretty scary risk. But yet He had faith in God that He would fight on their behalf. That is the kind of faith that God is looking for in His children. Child-like faith that depend on their Father.
God is able to do impossible things. He doesn't need us to do miracles or amazing things. He wants to work through us, especially our weaknesses. So whatever your risk in life today is, trust God with it. He will act on your behalf if you have faith that He will. God will do amazing things through your weaknesses.( 1 Corin. 12) Just trust Him. That is my biggest thing in life right now. So this story really inspired me to trust God with the things that seem impossible right now. He is able!

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Psalm 91

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom i trust."

Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers and under His wings you will find refuge, His faithfulness will be my shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror or night or the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilences that stalk in the darkness, nor the plagues that destroy at midday.

A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but they will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.

If you make the Most High your dwelling, even the Lord, who is my refuge then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. For he will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
"Because he loves me." says the Lord, "I will rescue him; i will protect him, for he acknowledges My name. He will call upon me and i will answer him; i will be with him in trouble, i will deliver him and honor him.

With long life will i satisfy him ad show him my salvation.

This is my all time favorite chapter in the bible. It talks about the love of God that He has for His children that love Him. It is such a great reminder for me whenever i get worried about my future i can look at this promise that the Lord has for me and know that my Lord has everything under control. So i just wanted to share this and tell all of you that the Lord will protect and rescue those who love and follow Him. What a wonderful thing that the Creator of the world loves me enough to protect me and be there when i call on His name. He says that when i call, He will answer me. Maybe not on my time but on His perfect and wonderful timing. That is the greatest feeling ever.

Saturday, July 10, 2010


Wow. I haven't been on this page for a while. So many things have happened and i have felt God so clearly again! I love being in the presence of my God. I have been out at Lake Geneva Bible Camp and there are so many incredible speakers that i have heard. I plan to write some of the things that i have learned from them here on this page. I hear all theses speakers and all of them are so on fire for their King and love people so much. I can see the compassion on their faces for the lost and the excitement to tell them about God. It is soo amazing to see that and experience the message about what God is telling them to share and what God is teaching them everyday. The one thing i love about camp is it is a refresher. Its a breath of fresh air and everyone there is sooo welcoming. I love being around people who are so in love with Jesus Christ. Its like one big happy family. I just cant even imagine what heaven will be like. I bet it will just blow my mind. Well, i know it will. One thing i have learned that is so true, God is always doing more then we think. God is sooo big and He is soo beyond our imagination, so His plans and thoughts are far greater then mine.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Dear Friends

Now today i would like to talk about my wonderful friend Nikki. I feel like i haven't seen her forever and i miss her so much. She is such a wonderful people and i am so grateful that i have gotten to know her. Her personality is amazing and so fun to be around. She is a type of person that just makes you laugh and smile. I also love the way she seeks after God. He drive to want to please Him and passion that she has for Him is so inspiring. Her deep thoughts that she has about God is also something really special about her. I have never thought of the questions that she has and it just makes me all the more want to know more about God. Nikki is also soooo beautiful. She is such a gorgeous girl, inside and out. I really want her to know that, and every girl for that matter. I know that God has created her for such a time as this. For a task that only Nikki can fulfill. I know that He has great things in store for my great friend and i am so excited to see where He takes her.

Friday, July 2, 2010

The Golden Jar of Manna

My day was pretty great. I went to work today and i worked with Rosie. She is such a sweet lady and is so fun to work with. My work has been going by really slow lately, so it was nice to work with someone that makes time go by a little bit faster.

I also went to the Family Camp night service with my mom and sister. It was super good and it got me more pumped for senior teen camp coming up. God moves in such powerful ways there and I'm so excited to see what He is going to do this year. The pastor talked on the ark of the covenant and how people are looking for it here on earth ( like Noah's ark) and some people say that they have found it, others say that they have it and are guarding a cave that they say it is in. Anyway, Pastor Denny said that he knows where it is at for sure. He explained to us that it is in us. We have the ark of the covenant inside of us. The presence of God is no longer in the ark but dwelling in us. He talks about it in Acts 2 on how the Lord came as a wind in the presence of these men and filled them with His presence. Then they were amazed and looked at each other and saw a flame above each one of them. Pastor Denny thinks that God right there said that you now have my Spirit with you.

Also, the ark of the covenant has three items in it:
1. A golden jar of manna
2. Aaron's staff that budded
3. Tables containing the commandment

So today he talked about how we carry the golden jar of manna with us since we have the ark of the covenant living inside of us. I guess the history behind the golden jar of manna is when the Israelites were in the desert, God provided manna for them to eat. So the Lord told them to place a golden jar of manna to be a testament that God provided for them in time of need and rescued them. It was a reminded that the Lord was there for them and provided. So we carry that jar of manna inside of us as a testimony that the Lord provided in our lives. If the Lord healed you, He can heal you again. If the Lord saved you from danger, He can save you from danger again. If the Lord comforted you in time of sadness, He will comfort you again. The Lord is the same, yesterday, today and forever. If He parted the Red Sea, He could part it again if He wanted to.
So when we need God in our time of need, show God your golden jar of manna and tell Him that He provided here so He could do it again. Its all on faith that He will bless you. And if it doesn't happen, then we need to have faith that He is doing the right thing for us. This is just what i learned today and was excited that i learned something new about God. That was my prayer for a while and the Lord answered it once again!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

My Dear Friends

This has been on my heart for a while and i just want to write down some thoughts that i have on my dear friends. I love them all so much and i want them to know how important they are to me. So i will choose a friend each day (well try to) and write about them and the things that i have learned from them and why i love them so much.

So i would like to tell you about my friend Shanna. I went to St. Cloud today by myself for the first time and i brought her a long. She is such an amazing woman of God and has such a heart for people. She always makes people feel special and always wants everyone to be happy and comfortable. I look up to her so much for the standards that she has. I love her so much and i have known her all my life pretty much but have just started hanging out with her. I am so glad God has brought her into my life and always will be blessed from being her friend. Shanna also has amazing inside and outside beauty. Her beauty from the inside is so beautiful and it is how a woman of God should look like. Her heart is so pure and so sweet and that is something that i look up to so much. I know that God has incredible plan for that girl's life and i cant wait to see where God brings her.

Saturday, June 26, 2010


Today was a pretty good day. I worked six hours today. Which is kind of a lot for me but to some people that may be little. haha but i realized that the Lord is always watching out for me on the littlest things and the big things. I can always tell that He is right there beside me, which gives me so much comfort. I realized that one of my favorite artist, Kari Jobe, went to the college that i really want to go to. She was saying in a interview how worship has always been a huge passion of hers and that it was her dream to lead people into the presence of God through worship. So she said that CFNI helped her so much with that and has had many opportunities through her experience there. She said that she has learned so much about who God is and about His Word. That just made me all the more want to go. But i know that it is just a year away still and i need to always bring all my thoughts to God first to see if this is where He wants me to go. I learned that SO much can happen in a year. So who knows where the Lord wants me, but at this point i am thinking CFNI.

i come before you as your daughter and i am asking that you will keep reveling yourself to me in a new way each day! i pray that you would keep showing me where you want me to go and what you want me to do with my life. I want to please you and bring a smile to Your face. So please guide me in the way that you want me to go. Help me to have the courage also to where you want me and obey what ever you ask of me. Thank you for supplying my every need. You are so good! I love you so very much.
In Jesus Holy Name.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Best Friends

I have been thinking about this for a while on being best friends with God. I have always thought that i was pretty great friends with Him. I read my bible, i pray every day, i go to church every Sunday and even participate at church. But when i think about a best friend or one or my best friends, is it the same as my relationship with God? I know that God wants to be best friends with me but He is just waiting for me to come running into His arms. When i think of a best friend you always want to spend time with them, you cant wait to see them next and are always thinking about them. You pretty much cant get enough of your best friend because you just love being around them. Now when i look at the relationship i have with God i see myself thinking that i HAVE to read my bible, that its hard to sit through a church sermon. When i am writing this down and seeing how far i have to go to become best friends with God, it just hurts me so bad. I have been putting God on the back burner and not holding hand with Him and letting Him be apart of everything in my life. I should be so excited to open up His word and want to learn something knew that i don'tt know about God. I WANT to be so consumed with Him and just want to strive to be more like Him. I strive to love the way he loves, forgive the way He forgive, be slow to anger and He is slow to anger. All these amazing qualities that my best friend has. When you spend time with your best friend, you start to take on some of the qualities that your best friend has. That's how it should be with God and I. The more i spend time with Him, the more i will become more like Him and love Him. This is my prayer that i will be more like my Creator and people will see that and i will have to courage to bring Him up and tell them about my best friend.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

The Heart Of Solomon

I was reading about Solomon a while back and it really caught my eye on how his request from God was wisdom and knowledge to lead God's people. Solomon could have asked for anything in this world when God asked him what he would like, but he chose wisdom. God noticed this and gave Solomon so much wisdom that he was the wisest man living. Kings would come from all over just to hear his wisdom. That is incredible. So God keeps His promise when He says ask and you shall receive...but it also has to be with the right motives. I believe if Solomon would have asked for money or things of this world, God wouldn't have blessed Him as much as He did. But God saw the heart of Solomon. So He blessed Him richly. Like it says in the Word, "Man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart." This really was an encouraging story to read because it wanted me to have a heart like Solomon. Fearing God and wanting to serve Him as best as i can. Solomon knew that he couldn't lead God's people on his own, he knew that he needed God.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010


Dear Lord,
I am asking that you would give me peace right now. I get anxious about a lot of things and take things to heart very easily. Please be my comfort and show me how to be love to your children. Show me how to be kind, forgive, be an encourager, be totally submissive to your will. I need help with all of these and i cant do it on my own. Also, help me become the woman of God that you want me to be. Mold me into something beautiful for your glory. Help me to have a quiet and gentle spirit that you call me to have and to dress modestly and to have to right mind set that i am beautiful in your eyes. I need your help with this Father cause i fall short every time, so i need You.

Monday, June 21, 2010


Sometimes there are days when i feel like i never make a difference in this world. Like what if there never was a Gretta. Would there be a difference in this world? Have i made a impact in peoples live? This question has been running through my mind at this moment and i am wondering if it is true. I feel sadly that it is not. It's sad to think that my great great great grand children will not even know my name or what i have done. Unless i use my life to the fullest for God and let Him use me how ever He wants. Because without Him i am nothing. I am nothing. But because of His grace i am something because of Him. So sometimes i feel that i am forgotten even at this moment. Which i may be forgotten by my friends and family but i will never be forgotten by my Lord. That is the thought that keeps me going. Because i know that this world will never always be here for me. They will always some way let me down and hurt me, but i know that my Father wont. He would never hurt me. Its a weird feeling know that i will be forgotten once i die. People will still keep on living their lives, doing what they have always done. It wont stop just because of me. I'm not trying to sound selfish and want everyone to stop what there doing because of my me. But it is just an eye opener to think that i am not significant at all. I'm nothing. I am just dirt from the earth and will go back to the dust of the ground once i die. But again, because of Jesus Christ i am something beautiful and worth something.

Sunday, June 20, 2010


My niece is going to camp tomorrow and she reminds me of myself when i was little. She came to me crying telling me that she misses her parents and that she was getting home sick. Seeing this, i know exactly how she feels. I use to cry every single night because i would get so home sick at camp. Its amazing how time flies and thinking back to it seems like yesterday when i was telling my niece the stories of my experiences at camp being home sick.

Anyway, its just amazing how time flies. Like this year has gone by so fast and to think that i have one more year left until i go off to college. That is my next step. kind of like camp, i was super nervous and got home sick all the time but in the end it was and still is an incredible experience and i am so thankful that i have done it. That's how i think college will be. The only thing is, is that it is a lot farther away from home, but i know that the Lord will never let me down and will watch over me. I just need to trust him.

Saturday, June 19, 2010


My niece and nephews are up for the weekend and they are so much fun to be around. Spending time with them has made me want to be a mom. It makes me want to be a mommy to little kids that love me back. I guess if i have this longing for a child to call me mommy and to come running into my arms and tells me that he or she loves me, i can see God feeling the same way about me. I can see His longing for me to call Him my father and come running into His arms when i fall down and need love and protection. I know my time to have a family is a long ways a ways but my time to be a child to the Awesome God is now and it will always be now. Children are such an example to us because they are so trusting of their father or mother and that is how we are suppose to be to our God. Also, they have such an amazing amount of joy. Always laughing, smiling and just running around with happiness. We need to be the same because we are crazy about Jesus. So i guess this time with my niece and nephews has opened my eyes to how exciting it will be when i am a mother some day but most importantly that i need to have a child like faith and come running into the arms of my Father and be filled with joy because i belong to the King!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

My Little Sister

Today i would like to tell you about my little sister. First of all, she is my best friend. She is the type of person that is so beyond caring for people if kind of puts me to shame. She is the most giving person i have ever met. I have known her my whole life and i will always know her. That's why she will always be my best girl friend and i can go to her with anything. I love her so much and we can laugh for hours just being together. Looking back on all the memories that we have had together is amazing. We went on our first plane together. We traveled to many amazing places and saw many great things together also. My little sister means so much to me and she is such a blessing in my life. Even though she is littler then i am, she is still a great role model in my life. Her heart for children and people is so great and i can see her hunger for God growing each day. I love to spend time with her even though we are sisters and we fight sometimes i still love her to death and appreciate her so much. I know that she will always be there for me whenever i need her and that is the greatest feeling even. To know that someone has your back no matter what you have done or will do. I love my sister and always will.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Dear Lord,
Please be my comfort right now God. My heart is just hurting and i need you Father. Please be with me every step of the way in my life. I know and trust that you will.

Monday, June 14, 2010

My Love

I want God to be the love of my life. I want to please and make Him happy in anyway that i possibly can. I want to have a life honorable to my King and make Him smile down on me and say "Good work my good and faithful servant." Yet i find myself not doing my best at this desire of mine. I fall short every single time. I always put things before my Love and do things that don't honor Him. Its like what Paul says on how he does what he doesn't want to do. That's me. I fall short every single time. But some how He is always there to welcome me back with open arms and will always forgive me. That's what i want to be to my friends and the ones i love. I want to be a friend to them how Jesus was a friend to people on this earth and still is. I want to love people no matter what they do to me and always except them back with open and loving arms. If Jesus can do this and wants us to strive to be holy as He is holy and love one another then that's what i want to do to please my God. I know people will hurt me and my heart may hurt like crazy but i know that God will be there to help me love them, because i can't do it so He is going to have to. Life is not easy but i has the most INCREDIBLE friend there is to walk along side of me. Wow. I am one lucky girl. :)

Dear Lord,
Please help me love people and welcome them with open arms just how you have done to me. I pray that you would work in my heart and teach me all that i need to know so i can before more like you. I pray that you would help me to become more set- apart and different to where people cant help but see a difference in me and that i will have to strength and courage to tell them why i am the way i am. Please help me through this and help me to love and forgive my friends and the ones love.
In Your Holy Awesome Name.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Bring Him Glory

I learned this out of one of a book that i read and it really caught my eye because this is exactly what i was struggling with. So many people in this world are trying to find the perfect job that God wants them to do and they are afraid that if they miss it, they don't get a second chance. Well, i learned that God doesn't care what kind of job you have as long as you are doing it for Him and giving Him all the glory. He wants you to do your job for Him. Now I'm not saying that God doesn't have a certain plan for you life but that doesn't mean that you sit around and just wait for it to come. That's what i was kind of thinking and this really opened my eyes. Everything we do is to worship our God. That's everything. Cleaning the house, school, driving your car. haha i need to have to mind set that i need to honor God and bring Him glory. For some reason this is so hard. My flesh wants to take all the credit for what i do, the gifts that God has given me. Why?.... I need to bring glory to the Giver and Maker of my gifts. Its like creating something and then someone else takes all the credit for your work and wins tons of money and all that stuff. That's what i am doing to my God when i don't give Him the credit that He deserves.

Lord, I pray that you would help me not to be so selfish and take away my wants and fill that up with a servants heart that wants to serve you and your children. God i pray that you would help me with that because i cant do it on my own. I am so very sorry that i do not give you all the credit and the glory that you deserve. It brakes my heart to think that i am stealing your glory. Help me Lord with my selfish self.

In Jesus Name. Amen.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Reading His Word

I can remember a while back to where it was so hard for me to get into God's Word. I remember pastors preaching in their sermons on how we need to read our bibles and really dig into the Word but i never did. But this past couple of years i have really seen God work in my life and now i just want to get to know him. He is my friend and that is the only way that i will be able to get to know my Best Friend. It really shows on how we need to own our faith. We need to search God for ourselves and not take the "rumors" of God but really learn about Him ourselves. That's what i am trying to do, is really get to know this amazing God that i serve.

I have been reading Acts a lot and to be honest i have never really read it before. But i am so glad that i have been reading it because all the stories of Peter, Paul and all these people that loved the Lord with literally all their heart! They are such an incredible example to me and it gives me such an excitement to want to go out and love people and telling them about this AWESOME God that loves they with an unconditional love. So i guess for my plan from this day forward is learning all i can about my God and living it out! That's the toughest part but with God's help i can totally do it.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

Why is this such a constant struggle for me? Why do i give into the stupid lie that i am so not worth it and that i can never measure up? That i will never be pretty enough.....This has been really hard today for me. I get these little comments in my head when i look in the mirror that I'm not worth it. ughhhhhh

God, i am asking that you would show me the way that you see me. I need your beauty in my life, not the beauty of this world but yours. I pray that you would make my body healthy and give me the strength to help my body become more healthy. I almost feel like I'm sinking in the water right now like peter and i need you to give me your loving Hand to rescue me. I cant do this on my own. Help me to accept how you created me and show me that i am fearfully and wonderfully made. God, help me to believe that and know that. Help me to know that i am beautiful in your eyes and unquie and special. I love you with all my heart and i am trusting you with my life.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Come and Go

I am thinking about my life and looking back on the precious moments i had with my family, things Ive done with my friends, amazing people i have meet, wonderful places i have seen but one thing is the same about all of them, they all come and they all go. They are all so short. None of them give you a satisfied feeling of contentment and amazing joy. I have learned and it took me forever to learn that people in my life will come and go. I will meet incredible people that the Lord will put in my life and eventually we move on and God brings us to meet new incredible people. Man......i wish it didn't have to be like that because when i meet someone and create a relationship with them, I'm like attached and i don't want to ever see them leave......but this is where i need to just give them to God and realize that God will always be there with me. He stays there, and will never leave. We are literally Best Friends Forever. I am also working on walking in faith. This is so hard for me but i know that Gods plans are great so I'm going to follow His lead. Where ever that may be. I know where He wants me to go but i have been laying if off forever because of fear. Fear. My flesh is so stupid. Why do i doubt the Creator of EVERYTHING?? Why do i not trust the God who sent His son to die for me so i can live with Him forever in heaven because he loves ME so much!!!! Why?? So..... i am going to trust Him and go off to this place. Oh man, i am so nervous and so unsure, but through this my God will be with me every step of the way Holding me tight and giving me ebcouraging words every step of the way. I also know that i will be a changed person! I know that i will be so on fire for my God and i will grow so incrediblely close to Him. I just cant wait to see what God is going to do in my friends lives and mine! His plans are crazy amazing so i know i will be blown away by the plans He has for the ones that i love.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

His Plans Are Far Greater

Well today i have a voice recital at Macphail today and I'm pretty excited. It's really cool to look back on when i started voice down at Macphail and to see how far i have come. I am truly blessed that the Lord has given me this opportunity and that my parents are willing to drive down there every week. Wow. That is a blessing right there. God is sooo good. He is a God of second chances and amazing opportunity that He brings to me in my life. His plans are not my plans and they are far greater i know that. So all i need to do right now with my life

Friday, May 28, 2010

Dear Lord,
I pray that you would give me great joy that can only come from you. Right now it feels like the joy in my life is being sucked right out.....I need your joy and love God.

Thursday, May 27, 2010


My heart is just full us sadness right now thinking about all the hurt that people are going through. That people suffer every day, whether it be a physical need, being abused, starving or anything. This world is in such pain and it just brakes me heart when i hear of people that just hurt or even people that i am close to. I ask myself, why would God allow something so horrible affect a persons life or even destroy someone. Why? But i have to remember that according to Daniel, "All the people of this earth are regarded as nothing. He does as He pleases with the powers in heaven and the peoples if the earth. No one can hold back his hand or say to Him: 'What have you done?" This doesn't mean that God doesn't care about us and wants to destroy us or something, but what Daniel is trying to say is that we are just a vapor, dust. We will never be remembered by our own family when we die. So who are we to ask or tell the Creator of the universe. Knows every star by name!!! Do you know how many stars are in our universe???? He created them, He created you and me. So who are we to even come to God with a request? BUT, Jesus died for us on the cross just so we could live with the Creator of the stars FOREVER!! how incredibly crazy is that! He is in love with us! he not only loves us, but likes us. There is a difference. Wow. and that's the God i serve. So when i think that nothing in my life is going right or i see my friends and family hurting so bad, i need to put all my faith and trust in God knowing that He will take care of them. If He can hold the universe in His hand. Why cant he hold our little lives in Him hand also?

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Ask And You Shall Receive

Today was one of those days that just seemed like everything was great. I am reading an excellent book called This Present Darkness and it is such an eye opener to the spiritual battle that we face every day. It is crazy how much power we have through Jesus Christ. We have the same power that raised Christ from the dead. We have the power to fight and over come demons and especially the devil himself. So this book has really encouraged me and it gives me hope knowing that i belong to God and that He calls me his child and that He will fight for me.

Well, i got my very first "real" job today! So I'm super excited about that. I had an interview today and obviously it went well. hahaha i start tomorrow and I'm kind of nervous that i might screw up but i think it will be ok. It still amazes me how faithful God is. I was praying for a while for a job and i applied at a lot of places and it never seemed to work out. But then this job came about out of no where and i didn't have to search for it. God says "Ask and you shall receive, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be open to you." So that's what happened to me today! I asked God and just as He promised, i asked and by Him i received.

Monday, May 24, 2010


My heart is full of thoughts and questions that i would love to have answered right now. Don't you just wish that your timing was God's timing? hahaha that's how i feel some times but i know that my Lord's plan for my life is so much greater then what i have for myself. Faith is such a huge thing that i am struggling with. I didn't realize that faith could be so hard until you are faced with a situation that has to have faith and trust in God. Sometimes things in life are incredibly scary or where God wants you to go some place or wants you to do with your life that brings you out of your comfort zone. But I'm trusting that the plans that He has for my life are for the very best. Sometime when i have decisions to go somewhere or do something and i know that God is calling me there, i always ask myself, "Would i look back on my life and wish that i would have taken that opportunity. Would i wish that i would have done that or gone to that certain place." Some things i say yes to. And even though it sounds like the most scariest thing in the world, i know that going through with it would change my life forever. My relationship with the Creator of the world would grow so amazingly, that thinking on that, how would i not want to go. If i would go then i know that i would HAVE to put faith in my God and just by doing that our relationship would grow and for that i would be so truly blessed. So that's where my faith comes into play. To put all my trust in my Lord and know that His plans are perfect for me. He loves me and i know that He will be with me EVERYWHERE i go. Even if that means away from the ones i love so dearly. I need to go because i am a servant to my Lord and i need to do His will because i strive to please my Lord in everything i do!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Being The Manager

I learned something new today (like i do everyday) but i am reading that book that i was talking about "Unexplainable" and it was talking about how we are the manager of our stuff. God is the owner and we are here to keep watch over it and use it for the glory of God. We are here to bring glory to God in everything we do. So our money, talents, gifts, items and even people, they are not ours. We manage them for the Lord. It will give you a whole knew look on life and everything if you think about being the manager not the owner. If you would think that you are spending the King of kings money on something that you so call "need" would you still buy it? Or your talent that God has given you, would you use it if you need it the same way if you realized it is Gods gift to you to use for His glory? Just something to think about. I know that i need to work on this and when i read it, it gave me a big conviction on how i need to change the way i am living and bring God glory in EVERYTHING i do. Its hard, but God is so worth it and He will be there to help us along the way. We are not alone in this battle. He is there with us every step of the way.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

True Love

This day has been really great. Today is Mother's Day and i just want to honor my mother who brought me into this world and has raised me up in the Lord. I am so grateful for her. I think i take my mom for granite and i know i shouldn't. She does so much for me and not only just me but also the whole family. I love my mom so much and she is such an example of a wonderful mother. I am so blessed to have her in my life and i always will be. She is that type of person that is always there for you and is there to give you the best advice whenever you need it. She is an amazing person and the way she lives her life and raised my sister and i, i look up to her so much. I love my mom!

My older sister is up with her husband and she had us listen to a sermon that she gave on a CD. Wow. Did the Holy Spirit speak through her. She was talking about how weak our flesh is and how we need to be on watch and always be in prayer. When we do this, the Lord will reveal what He wants us to say or do. Also, to have complete surrender to God and his will. Not our will but His. She also brought up the fact the Jesus not only went through the horrific suffering of the physical side but also the emotional. He experienced total separation from God and the weight of EVERY sin there ever was and ever will be. Wow. And to think that He did that for me. The amazing part is, Jesus was so incredibly scared, He was sweating blood that's how scared he was, but yet, the love that He has for us and the surrender that He has for the Father, He went through with it for you and me. That is true love right there. There is no greater love then this. I serve this God! The God who knows each star by name. Knows how many hairs are on my head and died for me so that i could spend forever with Him in heaven. That my friends, is true love.

Friday, May 7, 2010


I am watching Tim Hawkins with one of my friends and i was just thinking that laughter is such a gift that God has given us! Laughter is medicine to the heart it says in Proverbs and i am so thankful that the Lord has given us laughter. I love to laugh and laugh with people i love. So rejoice in the Lord and thank Him for all that He has done for you! I pray that you would all have the joy of the Lord and can laugh!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

True Contentment

This world is so catch up in the "I want this and i wont be happy if i don't have this." Contentment is such a struggle for me personally and its something that i desire to have to much. Just being content with where ever i am in life and what is happening in my life. Paul is such a great example of being a model of what true contentment should look like. He said that he learned to be content in whatever the circumstances. Wow. So that means when we don't have enough money of college, friends are letting us down, we are fighting with our family, we loose our job, we get a D on an assignment, we are still suppose to be content with WHATEVER the circumstances. Why? Because we have Jesus Christ. Paul was so content because he knew with all his heart that his Lord loved him so much. I believed that. He accepted that Jesus came to die for him so that he could be with God forever. What more do we want then to spend eternity with our Creator. Paul for the key to contentment. Rejoicing in the Lord always. This is what is going to bring up true contentment. Rejoicing in that fact that we have a Savior that loves us so much, a God that wants to be apart of our lives, a Creator that cant stop thinking about us because He loves us so much. So instead of being unsatisfied with "things" in life. Rejoice, for we have a God that came to this earth, put himself in our level and die the most horrific death possible for you. What more would we want?

There is a book that I'm reading that talks about contentment a little bit and it is amazing. I highly recommend it. It's called "Unexplainable."

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


I thought just came into my head about beauty in this world. It is everywhere. Beauty is such a huge thing to people and everything. The sad thing is people had distorted what real beauty is. The way God designed it to be. Perfect and left the way He made it. If you think about a flower, that flower doesn't say how unsatisfied it was made or doesn't try and change its beauty because it isn't good enough, its perfect. God designed that flower with such incredible beauty that it doesn't need to be made more beautiful. Same with you and me. We are all perfect the way God made us. We are all full of God's beauty because we are created in His image. What more would we want? We are created in the image of the God who created the universe. That's incredible. So why are we so caught up in this worldly beauty that is so distorted and wrong and not strive for the long lasting beauty that will always stay beautiful. That beauty that God has given us will never fade away if we walk with Him and stay as close to Him as we can. This has just been on my heart because i did a paper on beauty that the world promotes and all the research that i found was crazy how much the media expects of women to have a perfect body. A body that wont last and a beauty that will eventually fade away. As i was reading the other day in the Word i found where God is talking to King Saul when he is suppose to choose the next king. Saul thought he found the perfect looking king. He was well built and just had the look of a king, but God had something else in mind. He had David on his heart. David was just a shepherd boy and not a king looking type at all, but God saw the heart of David and how he was a man after Gods own heart. For man look on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart. So with this, beauty comes from with in. With Jesus, we have a beauty that the world doesn't have that we need to share. People long to have beauty and love in their life, something that will satisfy. So let's share this Beauty and love with our friends that long for it the most.

Friday, April 30, 2010

Letting God Take It All

School is coming close to an end and i just cant wait for it to be over. Except the stress level is running so high right now and i feel so much stress. I don't think i have ever been this worried or stressed about something. Teachers are excepting a ton from me and i have never had that before. But i need to realize that my God cares enough to take all my worries and stress and just give it all to Him. A lot of things have been on my heart lately. Things that i just need to give to God and just trust Him with it for i dont have control. I have such a problem with worrying and not trusting my God that He will take care of me. As Psalm 91 says, "Because he loves me says the Lord, I will rescue him, i will protect him for he acknowledges My Name." I need to remember my God's promise that He will be there for me.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Isaiah 40

Isaiah 40 has some really great stuff. I never really read it before and it is such an amazing chapter because it talks about the glory of God and the incredible power that He has. When i read this, i cant help but think that this is the God i serve. This is the God that loves me so much that i cant even comprehend. I am so not worthy, yet he still loves me and calls me His daughter.

"Lift your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one, and calls them each by name. Because of His great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing." Isaiah 40:26

Saturday, April 24, 2010

We fall but He picks us back up

Sometimes there are moments in your life where you try so hard to serve God and be everything that He wants you to be and you just cant do it. you fall. i guess i feel like i have to please people and make them happy by the way i live, but really i need to be so concerned about the way i live my life and what i do to please my Father. It brakes my heart when i know that i let him down and its a feeling that i cant explain. My life is to please God and make Him smile in everything i do. So when i screw up, i feel like i cant go on again. But i guess, that's where His amazing love comes into play. I know that he will accept me into His arms even though i don't deserve it. My heart hurts because i know i could have done better. I always ask myself why and wish i could have gone back and done it better. The way God would have wanted it. But i know that I'm human and fall ALL the time, that's why it is so hard for me to understand the love of God, that fact He will love me no matter what. Thank you so much Jesus!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Precious Moments

We were on our way to the cities for Macphail and i was sitting by gabbie and she is getting closer to the age where she wants answers for everything. So she just started talking about Jesus and how much she loves Him. It was the greatest thing. Then she started asking questions like "did Jesus know he was going to get hurt that bad when he died on the cross for us " or " Did God create Jesus?" I was so cool to talk to her about Jesus and it was also so precious when she said " do you know who i love to talk about?" and i said who? She said " Jesus." I thought that was so cute and so special.

Today i just feel so drained. I just cant wait for school to be over so i can spend a bunch of time with my Prince. I love spending time with Him so much and i wish i could give every moment to Him. When i was homeschooled, i had the exucse of reading the bible instead of my school, but i dont think that would work to well with my teachers at the tech. My God is soooo amazing and blows my mind. I love Him with all my heart and i want to learn more and more about him! He means everything to me. There are times in my life where my heart kind of hurts, but whenever i ask for Him to be there with me, he never lets me down. He is always faithful! Man, i want the whole world to know this Love that i know. This kind of relationship that will NEVER die. A friendship that will never pass away. I will be with this AWESOME friend of mine for the rest of my days. Forever. Thank you Jesus so much for dying for me so i can be with you and have this relationship with you that is so incredible. Help me to have a heart that burns for your Name.

Friday, April 9, 2010

Praising Him in All Occasions

Today was pretty much the longest day of my life. I went to St. Ben's today for an orchestra thing called CLC where orchestras from all over Central Lakes come together and play music. It is a pretty cool thing but it gets incredibly long. We left the high school at 7 am and got home at 9:30 pm. Yeah, that pretty much says it right there. But i guess when i think about it, i am blessed with so much and have no reason to complain at all. I was blessed with amazing opportunity to play with people who love music all day. God is good. ALL the time. I am blessed. I need to realize that more and be thankful for the things and gifts my Lord has given me!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Giving Everything

I was riding today with my dad in the pump truck and it brought back so many wonderful memories of when i was little just spending time with him. I love my dad so much and have such an amazing relationship with him and i am so thankful so that. Anyway, we were just listening to the radio and it was talking about a Jewish man who was with the Germans and experienced so much and saw so much. Such horrible things that just make me sick. I can't understand why man can be so incredibly cruel to other human beings. it is just so sad. When we were listening, my dad started telling me this story about a German who took Jewish people as "slaves" but was really helping them and keeping them alive. As my dad was telling me this, he just started braking down and crying. I have never seen my dad like that. I have seen him cry but something about that moment was different. I saw the compassion and the love that he has for people. I just started to cry with him and hearing what this man did for these people is amazing. He sold everything he had just to help them. And when it was all over, he was shaking the Jewish peoples hands and they said " your car is waiting sir " and as he looked at his car and the ring and watch on his wrist, He thought to himself, " why didn't i sell these things? Why? i could have saved 10 more people! I could have saved more people if i would have sold these things. " Man, this is love. This is what our God calls us to do. To help the people who are needy and helpless. This man had an amazing example of this and showed love to these people. If i think about what i have, i could save thousands of I am so selfish. My heart just hurts for these people in need. But yet there is something inside of me that says i can't do anything. But i know through Jesus Christ everything is possible. Ask and you shall receive. We need to stop thinking about ourselves and give what we think is so important and give to others who are dying for love and food. We need to be Jesus to people who need it the most. People are hungry. Why don't we feed them and love them?

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

The Battle

Today in c-groups, we watched a movie on how it will be in college and what we need to do to prepare for college. It really made me sad when they said christian colleges have people sleeping around, getting drunk and having parties all the time. This just saddens my heart knowing that there are so many lost people out there but call themselves followers of God. What does it mean to follow Him? Obviously this is something that we all need to consider because people aren't getting. When we accept Jesus into our life, God tells us to go and sin no more. I understand that we are sinful people and not perfect, but we need to strive with everything that we are and take the help of God to become more like Him, not become more like this world. We are called to be set apart, holy people of the God most High! Anyway, after we watched the movie, a conversation was brought up on how we aren't fighting a battle because we are suppose to love one another. But i think, we are fighting a battle. The bible says we are, but not of flesh and blood but with the dark spirits of this world. Satan. And since we are called to love each other, and they are doing something that is not right, if we truly love that person and want to help them, you would tell them that is not OK. That is love.

Wow, i have learned so much about this AWESOME God and i keep learning new stuff every single day. I am struggling with something so hard right now. I have never been in a situation like this before and it is SO hard. But looking back and looking right now at my life in this hard time, i know it is for a purpose. I know God is doing it for a reason and in the end it will turn out into something beautiful. My Jesus loves me so much that i can't even comprehend so i know that He cares about my life and my worries. This time in my life i know will be gone so fast. I need to learn to not take for granite the little things in life and live every day to the fullest and act as if i would die tomorrow. I need to. My life is so short and it bugs me to think that i waste it on stupid stuff instead of giving it all to my God. I have so many plans and goals in my life, but my biggest one and most important one is living 100 percent for my Jesus!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

This Lost World

Before me are people standing with a puzzled, worried look on their faces, looking both directions but yet not taking the chance to cross the road. Jesus is calling out to them letting them know its safe to cross but yet they have a fear and they can't put their trust in Him. He can see if it is safe to cross and knows if a car is coming or not yet they still can't trust Him. This picture reminds me of everyday life. Jesus is there across the street calling to us, telling us its OK to cross and come spend time with Him and live with Him, yet we are placed with fear and not trust. Why are we so worried about what is going to happen, when Jesus has it all under control and can see the whole picture.
Today i have been thinking on other things instead of my God. It saddens me that i can't give everything i am to the one that loves me so much that He gave his life. So my challenge right now is to give Him everything. Now when i think about that, what does everything mean? Does it mean my thoughts, my school, when i eat, when i sleep? Everything i do needs to be for my King. God calls us to love him with all of our heart, soul, mind and strength. That is EVERYTHING we do. not just some of it. So my prayer is that i will know what that means truly and take it into action. I cant so it on my own, that's why i have Him right there beside me.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Give it all to God

Today was Easter. My cousin came up last night so that was really fun to see her since i haven't seen her in a long time. Glen and Mary are here also so that is also a lot of fun. They are such an amazing blessing in my life and i call them my grandpa and grandma. They have always been there for me and i know that they always will. Since
Since today is Easter, i thought i would reflect on how amazing the gift that Jesus has given the world. I watched the Passion of Christ the other day and when ever i watch it i just can't stop crying. But for some reason this time was worse. When i was watching Jesus being whipped, i kept thinking, he was thinking about me and taking all that for ME! Wow, i feel so unworthy. But the crazy thing is, He loves me so much that he took it and went through with it just so i could spend forever with him in heaven. My God is incredible. They pain that he felt, the emotional burden that he carried, the weight of every sin in the past, present and future of the WHOLE world blows my mind. I cant even imagine. That kind of love in unthinkable. This God that gave his life for me and loves me enough to be forsaken by His father and bare the sins of the world did that for me.

I have been dealing with stress today because i worry so much about homework and if I'm going to get it done and most importantly, if i will get a good grade. I have this problem where i feel like i have to be perfect at everything in school other wise I'm stupid or something. I know that I'm human and fall short all the time but i cant seem to get this one through my head. So I'm asking God for His wisdom and strength in school because everything i do is bringing praise to my God, so I'm striving to bring praise to Him with my school. I have been learning what actual worship is. Most people think worship is singing praise music and just singing for the Lord. But worship is so much more. It is obedience to God. That is the highest form of worship. Everything we so is bringing praise to Jesus.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Last night at c-groups we were talking about a verse found in John 15:16-17. It talks about how we didnt choose God, God chose us! Wow. That just blows my mind on how the Creator of this world and universe chose me and loves me with a love that i cant even imagine. I'm going to a junior and senior high retreat tomorrow and i can just feel in my heart that God is going to do something big there! I am so pumped and i each day i cant feel my heart burning for Jesus! Thats my prayer. To burn like crazy for Him.

To the Love of my life,
I pray that you would keep bringing my heart closer to yours and that my heart would refect your heart. I also pray that you would give me your love, forgiveness, peace, patience and strength. God i strive to be like you and i pray that you would fulfill that pray God! I believe you can. I love you Jesus so much......i have never in my life have been this passionate about you and i am so thankful that our relationship is growing. I am going to try with everything that i am to seek you and as your Word says, to find out what pleases you.

Love, Your friend

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Today i gave my speech today on how to play the violin and the history of it. I was soo nervous but God gave a peace. He never lets me down. I am going to teach piano to one of my best students. He is such a sweet heart and I know God has amazing plans for his life. I sometimes opens up to me about his life. i don't know if i doesn't have someone to talk to but i love to listen and give him encouragement and tell him that God loves him. I am so excited for c-groups. It is always so good and God always is there.

Dear Lord,
Thank you for everything that you have blessed me with her on earth. My family and friends are amazing and i would like to thank you so much for answering my prayer. You never let me down God and You always love me no matter what! Thank you for much for everything. Help me to live my life for you! Help me to have a mind set on you and you always being my number one! I love you Lord with all my heart.
Your daughter

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

My Incredible Friend.

My Lord never stops blowing my mind. I have grow so close to Him and i want to strive with everything that i am to grow even closer to Him. I want my soul to burn when i hear Jesus' Name. I want my heart to leap for joy and love for Him every time i think about Him. I want Him to be my number one and always be in the front of my mind in everything that i do.

Dear Jesus, my best friend and lover of my soul,
i come before you as a child of yours ready to do your work and live for you. God, i pray that you would give me a fire burning passion for you to were i can not even contain it inside of me. Give me a light of You that shines so bright to were people are just drawn to You. God, i pray that you will use me for you glory and i ask Father to give me the courage and the strength to stand out for you. I cant do this on my own. Help guide my feet. God, you are so awesome and i cant wait for our relationship to grow into something that i could not even imagine. I love you with all my heart and help me become the women you want me to be.
Your daughter who is crazy about you.